deep thoughts

Most times when I just can't stand it all, I get an intense need for a hot shower. I am not sure when this came about but it seems to satisfy. These are not just normal wash yourself type showers. I make sure the water is just right then I sit on the floor of the shower, head directly in the path of steamy water, and I let it run down my body. But mostly I feel it is washing my brain. I can sit there for some time, some might see this as wasteful, where I see it as theraputic. Cheap therapy. For some reason, I feel like I can really think when I do this, and my thoughts are tolerable. My hair in my face, catching the water, I can watch it fall away from my face. I often wonder where my daughter gets her quirks (some things just have to a certain way), thinking she is quite strange, but if I look at my quirks, like really look at them, they are parallel. I am just an adult version with a bit more insight. Not much at times, but I regress.